Fat people love buffets

How can a fat person not love buffets?  Plate after plate of all the food you can stuff into your face is a dream!  Well, it's no longer heaven for me.  Everytime I walk into a buffet I feel as though I'm walking through hell.  For someone who obviously has food issues, it's difficult.  It's difficult not to revert into my old ways and pile food on my plate that shouldn't even touch my lips. 

Hubby loves the local Chinese buffet because it has all you can eat sushi.  I compromise and indulge his cravings because I'm such a great wife (ha).  Yesterday was one of those times.  I prepared myself as we are walking into the restaurant.  "Don't eat till you can't move. Don't pile your plate full of junk.  Don't eat 50 million plates of food.  Pick veggies over fried crap.  You can do this  You can totally do this!"

When I walked back to my table I was happy and so extremely proud of myself.  While hubby was loading his plate full of sushi I took a picture as proof.  Proof that I can overcome the dangers of a buffet.  Proof that I am slowly changing the ways I look at food.

My plate consisted of veggies with a small amount of black pepper chicken (which was delicious).  And for dessert?  Watermelon and cantaloupe.  No picture was taken because hubby was looking at me like I was crazy.  Who takes pictures of their food?  I was satisfied without being stuffed.  I felt like I was in control the entire time, and it felt amazing! 

RIP Plaid Pajama Shorts

Today I say good-bye to a good friend, plaid pajama shorts.  I remember when I bought Shorty almost 12 years ago.  She was the last pair of shorts that I bought in a "normal" store.  Shorty has been worn more times than I can count, and we have shared some difficult life changing events.  We have consumed several gallons of ice cream and hundreds of cookies together.  She painfully stretched to accommodate my fluctuations in weight even though it wasn't in her plan and has never complained how wide my butt became. 

Today I realized it's time to put Shorty out of her misery; it's really the best for both of us.  I can't have her around anymore because she no longer fits in with my lifestyle.  It has been a hard decision on what to do with Shorty but unfortunately she will not be going to another home.  R.I.P. Plaid Pajama Shorts....you will be missed!

Our last photo together.

Hot 100 Update Week 10

Thank goodness it is Friday!  This week has had alot of up and down moments and I hate to say that it's effected some of my goals.

Goal 1 - Lose 20 pounds - This morning I was pleasantly surprised with 312.6 staring up at me; which is a 2.2 lose from last week.  Total lost 22.8 pounds.  I'm going to change this goal to lose 30 pounds.  It can be done in the next 4 weeks!

Goal 2 - Read more to the kiddos - We read a book every single day this week.  I received a call from oldest's teacher earlier this week about him needing some extra help with reading.  He just isn't confident and doesn't want to say the wrong thing.  He is getting a double dose of help with tutoring at school and more one on one reading time at home with me. 

Goal 3 - Exercise 20 minutes for at least 4 days - A big NOPE on this one.  I got in one stupid day.  I know I can do better!  This is the goal I will be focusing on this week.  I'm in the process of trying to find a bike that won't collapse when I sit on it.  Or one that won't hurt my ass for 5 days after I ride.  Here is one option:

I know you are jealous of my awesome pink helmet!

Flat Stanley help!

I don't have many friends who live outside of Texas, so I'm asking for someone to help my son out on a school project.  Their class will be reading Flat Stanley by Jeff Brown.  In the story, Stanley is flattened, but not hurt by a bulletin board while he is sleeping.  His parents take advantage of his flattened condition and mail him to California in an envelope to visit a friend. 

As a class project they will be sending Flat Students across the country to see some different sights.  They are asking the recipients to mail them back to the school with a letter, postcard, or picture of the Flat Student's visit. 

If you are intersted in helping, please email me at thefatmom@yahoo.com.  We really appreciate it!

*** EDIT ***

I received several emails with an offer to help.  Thank you so much!  It means more than words can say that people I don't "know" would be so helpful. 

Are you effin' kidding me!

Today has been one of THOSE days where I just need to vent!  I came home from lunch to find the brand new 105 load liquid laundry detergent busted all over the washer.  Good news: it did not spill all over the floor.  Bad news: all of the laundry detergent landed inside a newly washed load of clothes. 

I tried to turn the rinse cycle on, but it only made things worse.  What did I end up doing?  I pulled every single item of clothing and hand washed them in the kitchen sink.  Think about the old days with a washing board and tub.  Damn whoever made sweats!  That shit soaked up every single drop of detergent.  By the time I was done with the entire load I was a freakin' sweaty hot mess. 

If this wasn't enough to deal with, hubby continues to ask when dinner will be ready.  Ummmm, whenever it's ready that's when (it's still 5:30 geez)!  Then youngest decides that it's ok to hold the dog down and kick her.  I lost it! 

The rest of the Halloween candy is tempting.  A couple of margaritas sound delicious.  Cookie dough is calling my name.  But instead of turning to food, I'm whining about my day.  Sulking is free in calories!

12 Days of Christmas

Kenz and Janna are hosting a 12 days of Christmas Gift Swap.  Here is a list of the particulars that you need to know if you plan to participate:

* You must have a blog to participate! It's important because participants will be asked to post about the event on their blogs too. We want to see what everyone receives!

* This swap is only open to bloggers in the US. I heart my international friends, but shipping will be too complicated at this time of year. We should have come up with this idea sooner, right?

* Don't be cheap! The gifts don't need to be expensive! They just need to be thoughtful and fun to receive. Fill the package with gifts that you'd like to receive. :) Think about how you want to feel when you open your package, and add a little "wow" to your gifts. You get the idea, right?

The sign up deadline is tomorrow at noon!  To read more about it, head on over and check it out. 

Balancing act

I love Weight Watchers.  Not to say that other programs don't work (because they do), but I've had more success with this particular program.  I've been reading labels more, measuring my food, writing what goes into my mouth on a daily basis, and I feel more accountable to myself.  Instead of mindlessly eating crap all day, I think about every morsel of food that is ingested and if it will help fuel my body. 

The big announcement of changing the program made many nervous.  I am not afraid of change and will adapt, but that doesn't mean I'm not struggling.  The amount of food that I have to eat in order to reach my daily limit of Points is ridiculous.  Did I just say that out loud?  Did I just admit that eating a huge amount of food was difficult?  Please someone check my temperature, I think I may be really sick! 

Sure, it would be easy if I ate nothing but cookies and fast food all day to get to my allotted Points.  But let's face the facts, I'm trying to do this the healthy way with fruits, veggies, and water.  It's a fine balance between eating enough food to actually lose weight and eating too much food and gaining weight.  Anybody else experiencing the same situation with the new WW program?