What a great day!

I woke up to a 2.7 pound loss and under 300 pounds again!  WOOOOO HOOOOO!  Those days on the treadmill and trying my best to eat right actually worked.  Funny how that concept works.  I jumped in the shower singing - not a normal thing at 6:00 in the morning - and even took time to shave my legs - totally not normal on a work day!

Believe it or not but Texas has completely skipped spring and has gone directly into summer.  Sucks but whatever.  Instead of wearing my normal work attire of slacks and a polo, I decided to slap on a summer dress.  I spent extra time on my hair and makeup.  I felt amazing!

When I got to work my husband calls me.  He says, "Hey babe.  Just want to tell you how beautiful you looked this morning.  You are totally in the MILF category today and I can't wait till you get home to do naughty things to you."  I've never been called a MILF by anyone, including hubby.  Some people might think it's a derogatory statement, but I loved it. 

To top things off.....it's payday!  What an amazingly awesome day!

Swelling

I've been on the treadmill 3 out of 3 days!  Go me!!!

But, I'm concerned about the swelling in my hands.  I have to take off my rings before walking or else my fingers swell so much that they hurt.  When I step off of the treadmill I can hardly make a fist. 

What's that all about?  Any ideas?

Meet my little friend

This is the anniversary gift I received from my hubby about a month ago. 

Before you think that he should be kicked in the balls for being a douche bag, I actually asked for this.  When he asked what I wanted I responded, "A treadmill or jewelry.  You pick."  Anyways, I've been on the thing maybe 3 times since it's been installed, but today I'm recommitting myself to get my big butt in gear.  I envision lots of hours together, a bucket full of sweat, and maybe some cursing along the way.  I need to think of a name for my new best friend.  Any suggestions?

And by the way, my new friend is in our living room.  I have no excuses (other than the million excuses I make on a daily basis) why I shouldn't be jumping on. 

Killing me slowly

This weekend I came to a realization; my food addiction is slowly killing me.  That thought sunk in to my soul and it left me breathless.  I had to sit on the bed and think about what I was doing to myself.  Thankfully, I do not have diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease, or any other obesity related diseases.  That only means that I've been very lucky up to this point.  Eventually, it will catch up to me and I'm scared.  I'm scared what I'm doing to my body and my future. 

Maybe this is the realization I needed in order to get my shit together? 

How to control the pie hole

I'm struggling with snacking.  At work it's not much of a temptation because I don't have access to a fridge full of food.  I could go down to the vending machine, but I'm a penny pincher and don't see spending the money on a bag of chips (thank God).  When I hit the home front hide your children and lock your doors!  I'm in the kitchen shoveling the food into my pie hole as fast as I can.  I feel hungry and food just calls my name. 

I don't know how to control it.  Maybe my willpower is gone.  Today a friend posted this picture of me on Facebook. 

I wanted to punch her in the face.  Not literally, but I really wanted to delete it.  Maybe this picture will motivate me to stop the food madness.  If I don't handle the snacking now, then I will look like the above picture again.

Feeling like a slacker

I'm going to admit that what I am about to say is wrong.  I've been going through blogs all day trying to catch up.  When I would come to a person who hasn't blogged in 1, 2, or even 3 months I felt better about myself somehow.  Not that I feel like I'm above these people, but more like I wasn't the only person out there who has "fallen off the wagon". 

Now that it's almost 6:30 pm I feel like I've wasted my day sitting in front of the computer.  I could have been outside with the hubster washing cars and doing lawn work.  Ok, that doesn't sound as fun but it would have been better than wasting my day inside. 

I'M BACK!!!!

Yes, I'm back in the Fat Mom corner of blogland!  I've missed writing and the accountability it gave me, but most of all I missed all my blog friends.  It's incomprehensible how much this community motivates me in my own personal weight loss challenge.  Let's be honest, I haven't been motivated lately and that's the major reason why the blog was put on the back burner.  I'm still not 100% motivated, but this is a step in the right direction.  I have to face the facts that I screwed up.

I finally reached a major goal of being under 300 pounds and I stayed there for several weeks.  It was such an incredible feeling; I felt amazing!  Slowly, the number began to creep back up.  It only reached 305, but it was still enough of a kick in the ass for me.  Hopefully the scale will start going down again!

Work is going great and I've already received several complimentary emails from the corporate office in New York.  The Compliance Officer and Operations Manager have both sent emails about how awesome I am.  I mean they would be stupid if they didn't realize that already!  It's been hard to juggle work, kids, baseball, food, bills, life!  Though somehow it gets easier as time goes by.  Sometimes I miss being home with the boys, but then I come home and walk into a house of screaming kids and praise the Higher Aboves that I am able to have some sanity throughout the day.

I've been checking periodically on everyone's progress and blogs but I have not commented.  I promise I will soon let you know that I'm reading.  Thank you to everyone who has stuck by and sent emails asking how I am.  It meant more than words can express!