Why is ok that we say horrible things about ourselves, but we complain when other people have a nasty comment of the same degree? I've been beating myself up since Thanksgiving over the weight I gained and the amount of food I consumed. Reading how my bloggy friends survived the holiday with portion control and even weight loss makes me feel like a failure. I could have done better!
I've been trying my best to stay on track with my food intake. With Thanksgiving leftovers staring me in the face it was hard not to binge. I finally threw out the extra desserts we took home. Say good bye to the homemade cheesecake, the chocolate pecan pie, and the pudding with fudge cookies. The kids were heart broken, but they don't need it either.
Finally I feel like I have control of what I put in my mouth. Now, it's time to work on the motivation to move this big ass of mine. I don't use Spark People, but they had free videos on Youtube that were excellent! Because really, who wants to spend $20 on a DVD that they are going to use 2 times? I got in 20 minutes of resistance training and 15 minutes on my yoga ball; tomorrow will be cardio. It's amazing how good I feel right now.
Thanksgiving is in the past. Today I'm choosing to look forward instead of dwelling on what I did 5 days ago. I can't accomplish anything by beating myself up. Think positive! I can do this! (pep talk to myself)